The hubby leaves for his 6 month deployment tonight at 3:30am….Ive been a god damn mess all day. Going to drop him off and go home to sleep with the kiddos. Gonna just be us three in NJ…without any family around at all. I just gotta keep positive…Losing weight is all im gonna have (besides my kids) to keep myself busy and not goin crazy. OMG..the tears just fall without me even wanting to. ); 

Its time like these that I wish I wouldnt take for granted all the wonderful things my husband does for our family. I love him soooooo much. And now im gonna go cry some more. 

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